This article is about the life of being a freelancing game maker. Not that many people actually understand what it’s like to have this job. You’re at a family dinner and some relative asks what you do, you tell them and they just have a blank sorta face. Adult’s really don’t understand games even slightly. They then try and be interested and ask questions like… “So what type of games do you make” it’s pointless because they won’t understand my answer anyway.
It’s funny really, even my mum is like go get a job! I’m like I have a job mum…she’s like… uhh yeah but F95zone.. a real job. It’s so frustrating and makes me so angry. Just because I don’t go into an office and have a set work time, it doesn’t make it any easier. In fact it makes it even harder and this is what people really don’t realise.
When you make a game or anything at all. It is not like working at your 9-5 job of boredom. (Now when I say 9-5 mindless job, I mean any job that is one you shut your brain off for to endure instead of turning it on. Such as working take away joints, supermarkets, security etc) You can’t just shut down your brain and keep looking at the clock. You have to solve problems, you have to be creative of new ideas. Your brain is running non stop and it gets very stressful. Cause if you can’t be creative enough, then you can’t pay rent. That is a lot more stressful then having a solid weekly pay check where you just clock in and try get through it. I could spend a month working on a game, only to have it not sell very well and now I’m broke. It really is the harsh reality of it.
I argue with a friend who says my work is easy because I can set my own hours and get up whenever I want. Sure this great and theirs many positive things to it. Making games is awesome! I love it all, but it’s not a free ride job as people think. When you work, you look at the clock different to someone at a 9-5 job. You don’t hope for the day to be over, you keep looking at the clock worrying you haven’t got enough done today or this week. Will I get this game finished before I can’t afford food anymore?
The problem is pressure dampens creativity, but it also speeds up getting work done. It’s a tug and pull.
Basically my day will consist of waking up between 9-12. I’ll check up on all the usual stuff. Emails/Facebook/Reviews. Then I’ll tell myself I should work, but I’ll usually procrastinate till 2 in the afternoon. Usually I’ll get a few hours of programming in then. Till I get angry and stressed out from programming bugs. (Programming is really a mental strain sometimes, people that work mindless jobs will never understand this. It can be related to doing your final exams in high school for the amount of stress)
Some days Ill wake up and just work from 9 in the morning till midnight. Every day varies. Depends what I’m doing and how motivated I am or if I’m inspired by a song or movie. Usually I’ll be slack at the start of the game, but towards the end I’m working every day for 12 hours. Working from waking up, till I sleep to get it done.